:: the first trimester sun has faded, and in time will become a dim memory, though it still remains quite vivid in my mind. Oh, the relentless sickness that was more forceful than previous pregnancies, but that's currently being replaced by a normal rhythm of eating and actually enjoying the taste of food.
:: good-bye to being physically and emotionally unavailable to my family for portions of the past nine weeks. A joyful and much anticipated hello to taking care of them all again. And to our home, which needs a top-to-bottom decluttering and cleaning in my opinion--but first the people, then the things. Priorities, priorities.
:: the rays of light are fading for a friend so close to our hearts, and thus the sunset of a friendship that we are not ready to release, but have no choice. One that has out lasted the changes of marriage, children being added to the family and of distance. One family's battle with cancer may soon leave a husband without his mate and four children without their mother. We prayed earnestly for the light to shine brightly again and yet our heavenly Father is calling her towards His eternal presence--to be with Him, the bright Morning Star, forever. It is a painful sunset to view.
:: due to pregnancy and to just possibly the fact that I'm a reflective person by nature, I find myself contemplative these days. Thinking, pondering, praying about our future plans and hopes or simply personal dreams. The 'what if we...' or 'maybe I should...' types of talk that float in my heart and mind. The sun is setting there also as I learn to let go of my will to accept my Maker's best. News flash--my ideas or plans are not always the right ones! A humbling experience, but a needful sunset.
If the light is dimming for you in any way....allow it to run its course. Like nature and the rhythm of light and darkness set for our physical existence, the path of life is very much the same. Our experience is affected by our reaction to the exchange of day and night so to speak. But we are not without hope---there is a constant in our Lord, the One who does not slumber or sleep in the dark and who is the light!
